Friendship

Friendship is sort of a funny thing, the relationship you have with people who you like enough to spend most of your time with and allow to influence your life - I've learned that friends have a really profound impact on every aspect of my life.

I have a lot of stress in my life right now and sadly some of that comes from certain friendships, although I won't get into that - but when I feel that a friend is making bad choices or on a downward spiral, I feel like it is my duty to be there for them. Not that I can change anything, or sometimes I can't even make a difference because I get pushed away, but I feel like a horrible friend if I don't at least try to be there. Sometimes that's good enough - and sometimes that isn't.

But what I really appreciate in a friend is that same quality, that reliability that I know when I really need someone to be there for me, is what really distinguishes a best friend from just a friend. I have a lot of people that I consider friends or good friends but finding someone that is really going to be there for you, and someone you can really open up to without fear of being judged, is a really rare gift.

I have two best friends at school and it became really apparent today that there is no way I could get through college without them - Brittany and Dan. They have had completely different life experiences than I have but I feel like I have a lot in common with both of them, and seriously, I feel like I can go to them with a lot of things that I couldn't necessarily talk to with most people in my life. Brit has this ability to just make me laugh about anything at anytime, she really helps me relax and not take life too seriously. And Dan is full of odd but really useful wisdom - in between the ranting, his advice is invaluable. I wouldn't trade either one of them for the world and today I am just so thankful that I have them in my life.

There are a handful of other people in my life that I just be the same without. David is my rock, Tricia is my soul mate, and Sophie is like the sister I never had. Lauren knows me better than anyone else in the world and every one of these people helped me become the woman that I am today. That is, of course, along with all of the assholes and horrible friends that I've encountered too - but you can learn something from everyone that you let into your life, they all have something to teach you. They can show you how to be, they can show you how not to be, or they can give you cryptic, weird advice that somehow makes everything else make sense.

Anyway I think my point is that there are a lot of really amazing people in my life and I am especially grateful for them after a day like today and looking forward to the week ahead of me. Love you guys!!