Headlights pointed at the dawn.

I'm a 24 25 year old student and this blog is about my adventures as I go back to college and do my best to love each day.

22 January 2012

Out of State

I've been unnaturally quiet this month - on the internet, at least. In real life I am as loud as ever - always the loudest person in my class, or at least my group of friends is. I am sure everyone finds us obnoxious but laughing gets me through classes about Africa (so over it.) My workload this semester is already worse than I was hoping for just 12 credits; I gave one class presentation on Friday and I have another one on Tuesday, not to mention all of the reading.

I'm writing my senior thesis on Mikhail Gorbachev - uhh. I'm not thrilled with this topic but out of the possibilities, it was the one I felt the most comfortable with, since I studied him last year in Communism's Collapse and I feel like I can write a decent paper on him. I'd much rather be writing about something in pop culture, or 20th C America, or maybe Ancient Rome - a topic I actually find interesting enough to want to spend at least 25 pages on and months and months of research - which is pretty much my biggest complaint about CNU's history department. The faculty are amazing but there's really no specialization.

So... At one point - I think it was freshman year - my roommates Melissa and Alanna taught us a game about license plates from out of state. Basically - the first one to see an out of state license plate can punch someone else in the car (Montana! PUNCH) and then the other person just has to deal with it and hope that they find the next one. I taught Woody this game - although the punching is replaced by any sort of physical contact like tapping- and we had gotten pretty competitive about it. So naturally we decided to turn this into a real game. I made little score cards with the 50 states listed - and we keep them in my car. And any time we go out the game is ON. Today I found Texas, Tennessee and Michigan - and I'm currently winning. Being able to keep score makes this game so much more fun. The first one of us to find all 50 states gets dinner and a movie from the other, so the stakes are high. It's intense, let me tell you.

What I love about our relationship is that it is so fun - he keeps me laughing every day, even when I'd rather not, and he always knows just what to do to make me smile. It's a pretty amazing talent because when I've just had my presentation torn to shreds by the professor or done poorly on a quiz I can be really hard on myself, but he gets me to take things less seriously. And somehow I think I get him to take things more seriously. We definitely bring out the best in each other.


Also - do NOT challenge us to a game of Scramble with Friends because you will lose. This game is super addictive and super fun, and we are an unbeatable team of word-finding awesomeness.

11 January 2012

Super-super-super-Senioritis?

Woody just made me breakfast before I have to go to class today. Delicious and sweet!

I don't want to go to class today. I don't want to go to class, ever. W has a last minute semester off from school and despite the circumstances under which this has happened, I am so jealous. I know everyone says that once they've graduated and they're in the real world all they want to do is go back to college - but I am so over it. 8 years, guys. It is TIME for me to be out of here - and I don't really do the typical college thing, anyway, with the parties and the socializing and the drinking until I vomit.

Anyway, it's got me wondering just how bad this semester will be for me. Not only do I not care at all about college anymore, I am not looking forward to a single one of my classes - 20th C Africa, Society and Culture in China, Senior Seminar, and some Children's lit class - these are the sort of history classes that make students want to major in absolutely anything except history. I hate that at this school you can't specialize. If I had really understood that it was going to be an important thing about being a history major - or that I would have been a history major at all - I would have gone to another school.

So essentially, my prediction for this semester is that I am going to hate my classes. And I just hope I can manage to make it to them and that they aren't as bad as I am expecting but if I have learned anything from my college experience it is don't put off the "other regions of the world" history credits until your last semester. At least I only have to take 12 credits. But I'm wondering how badly senioritis will kick in because I am faced with classes that seem so dull I fall asleep just considering them, and combining that with an 8 year relationship with college that I am definitely ready to end.. let's just say I'm a little concerned with my ability to keep my focus.

Thankfully the rest of my life is amazing - Woody and my friends and my dogs and my horse, and I am counting on all of them to keep me sane through the end of this semester.

09 January 2012

Zelda

I'm currently curled up in bed with Phoebe, while Woody is sitting next to me playing Zelda and Rusty, fresh from the groomer's, is running around the room chasing his tail like some sort of mental patient. I just need to say - I love my life. Even though I've been so sick for the last 3 days that I have hardly left bed.

Right before Christmas we finished play Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess. This was a game I bought in 2008 right after I got the Wii for my birthday - and I got dreadfully stuck trying to play it. I picked it up again last fall and could not get past the water temple and asked Woody to help me. We spent a lot of hours solving puzzles and beating baddies together - it was fun. And for Christmas he got me Zelda: Skyward Sword. We've been playing it ever since, and we are about to beat it. Which has been a lot of fun but I'm sort of sad. The good thing about this is that we finish it before the semester starts - so I can focus more. Except that he also got me Paper Mario... but let's not focus on that, haha. Anyway the point is that I love just hanging out and playing video games with him - and Zelda has all the best puzzles.

I can't believe that classes start Wednesday. If all goes well this should be my last semester of undergrad. Cross your fingers for me! Woody's, too. Then we can graduate and move on to the next chapter of our lives. If I can get through this - I am super worried about senior sem since 390 kicked my ass so hard, and I really should get a job but my schedule is kind of weird for that and it stresses me out so much to work and go to school at the same time, I never get enough time off to keep my sanity. But I am so broke - so, so broke. Ugh. Everything we'll be okay, right? Right?

Thirst quenching

I just woke up from a dream in which I was REALLY thirsty, so I drank a bottle of water. In real life. In the dream this solution was somehow just out of my grasp.

What? I've been sick for three days, sorry my life isn't more glamorous for you.

03 January 2012

June Bug Skippin!

I am so thrilled! My favorite Youtube star and Twitter friend Flula made me a video shout out today! This is cooler than any other celebrity talking to me because I watch his video every week and have shared him with so many of my friends - he brings so much laughter to so many people! YAY Flula!



His video description is this: "I hope you are great June Bug! You are dope and danke! Someone interrupting the vid at end, oh yes! At all a rate Danke JBS!!"

SO COOL!

02 January 2012

2012

Holy shit it's 2012! Sorry, language, but there isn't really another way to express the fact that last year is over and a new one has started. I mean holy shit, you guys, it's 2012.

My resolution is to lose weight and keep it off. I've gained about 10 lbs since Woody and I started dating, why does that always happen?? Anyway. He also wants to lose weight so that's something we can do together.

Other resolutions include getting this house cleaned up, fixed up, and ready to sell. The kitchen is still a disaster area but we also need to work on the little bedroom and the porch- and a ton of little projects in other rooms.

Other, more big things could happen this year. Like hey, I am supposed to graduate in May, if I can keep my sanity that long. Woody and I are planning an early summer trip for post-graduation. I'm looking forward to that more than any of you know. And then, you know, real world. All that.

2011 was a year of really high ups and crazy lows. I am so glad that year is finally over- it was stressful for everyone in my life, including my parents. But it definitely ended on a high note, I got to ring in the new year with an amazing man and could not be happier with our relationship or the direction it's headed. (Psst, its headed to serious town - serious, serious town.) My horse, my amazing horse has come so far in his training and overcome an injury and is the most perfect animal. And Rusty and Phoebe have become best friends- they are inseparable!

Right now I'm laying in bed helping the boyfriend solve puzzles on Zelda before bed - and I could not be happier.