2011: Not a fan

I really do try to be a positive person, especially on my blog, because nothing annoys me more than emo whiny blog posts where no one can be happy about anything. But honestly I have had such a disappointing weekend and truthfully, the entirety of January 2011 has been a disaster.

I spent the first two and a half weeks of the month being dreadfully sick, and then classes started, and I have to say that I just hate school semester. I don't want to be here. My classes are fine I guess, but I hate being on campus for 9 hours on M/W/F and it has made me so miserable. I don't have time to do anything fun except for hanging out with Brittany which I'm pretty sure, at this point, is the only thing that is keeping me from going completely crazy.

I've been trying to come up with ways to solve this problem but nothing I've come up with is going to work out, apparently. I know it is over simplifying things but I really think that having a horse here in town would be so good for me. Riding is a great stress reliever and it is so relaxing. We don't have money for a new horse, even with selling the other two, but apparently bringing one of the other two here with me isn't an option either. This really sucks - I'd love to have Monty here with me because I think he would be more appropriate for taking lessons on, even if he is a little small for me. But even Biggie would be great to have here because he is so easy going and fun to ride. Ideally, yeah - I want a new horse because neither of the ones we have is just what I'm looking for - but if that's not an option I honestly don't see the harm in having a horse come with me to school, especially if it is going to help keep me sane.

Otherwise - this semester is boring and stressful. Not enough fun and too much work, the all too familiar feelings from the fall semester of 2006 which did not end well for me. I really need 2011 to be better than that year and I hope January is just a funk I am going through - I am not sure I can handle 11 more months of this.